Sunday, December 24, 2017

You Said

You may have even promised. You are not alone. More than a few have promised. You said you were my BFF, what did that mean to you? Best friend forever? Obviously not. You said you would never abandon me like everyone else did in this life. You said you understood how much that hurt. You said you would pay back all the money you borrowed and stole. we never even figured out how much, but you forgot or ignored what you said. You abandoned me and only really talk to me when you need something, money, support, something. The memes and emojis are not really sharing. They are not asking how are you? as if you really want an answer, as if you really care. I don't understand how you can disassociate from the promises, from the words you said, and pretend it does not hurt me. You seem to want reassurance of some sort, a smiley face response to your smiley face. I give it because that is who I am. A child desperate for someone to care about me and not abandon me. You said you did. You said you wouldn't. Where are you now?